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I think I've figured it out…

I used to have a blog on Wordpress that got terminated due to pornographic content. Here's one of those posts... (NB: the links are all dead so don't bother clicking)

Nero posted: " [I can't help feeling she has me by the balls, and I'm getting fucked] As you may know (if you're read most of this blog) my wife started reading dirty books via Amazon/Kindle, before switching to the nasty short stories on Literotica."

recovered post on Her Secret Library

I think I've figured it out…

by Nero
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[I can't help feeling she has me by the balls, and I'm getting fucked]
As you may know (if you're read most of this blog) my wife started reading dirty books via Amazon/Kindle, before switching to the nasty short stories on Literotica.com. So I enjoyed a good six months of great uninhibited sex with my wife, where we did a bunch of new things, and I was generally happy (aside from my angst about the sudden change in her sexual libido).
And then the well ran dry.
This is has been a terrible month, and the previous one wasn't great either. Sure, we've had sex - but the frequency is next to nothing and it's all straight old married couple sex. Her libido is zero and I'm not going to force myself on her. 
So I've been stewing in my own juices, wondering what's going on in her head - I can't figure out how someone can do all that stuff one minute (and I know she enjoyed it) and then next minute say "No, not interested"? Was it something I said, something I did? For the life of me I can't imagine what it might have been.
The well has simply run dry.
And then I read this post by Dizzygirl. There's a lot more to it than the bit I'm quoting, but this is the bit that is relevant to my situation:
Then, a strange thing happened. I no longer fantasized about being with women. It's not like I was turned off by the idea. It just never came up in my mind anymore. It was as though I fulfilled the fantasy and it no longer intrigued me like it had before. I'd satisfied my curiosity. Is that all it was? … I was exploring my sexuality, not really committing to anything one way or another… I don't fantasize about it anymore. I did enjoy it when it happened but now, I'm not interested in actively pursuing it.
So… my wife read some dirty books, thought "mmmm, I'd like to try that", and did. Tried it some more just to be sure, then ticked off her list. Done.
Great, but where does that leave me? I've tasted the ambrosia but now I'm told there is no more.
Nero | July 3, 2013 at 12:30 pm | Tags: dirty little porn library, realworld 

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